Growing up I had dreams and aspirations to work with kids so I wanted to be a pediatrician but in the same breath I don’t like science so that didn’t work out. After doing the morning news in highschool I decided I wanted to work in media! Journalism seemed to be the way to go so my Trini beti and I decided we wanted to go to Ryerson and live like the girls in Gossip Girl living downtown (less scandalous obviously) but that obviously did not pan out. Half way through university I decided that I liked Public Relations and Event Planning and that was it!

Here I am today sitting in my cubicle trying to figure how the heck I got here!

Taking a step back and observing my life I sort of know how but it is definitely unfortunate but not bad. I love my job – some days are better than others but that’s what happens when you have to deal with other people in general. Getting a job in media is super hard unless you have a connect or are willing to go broke trying to build experience with mini jobs, in my opinion. There were a few opportunities that I received even while in university but I was working a full time job and they wanted me to work for free basically until we put ourselves on… pardon?

Where are the paid internships? or at least the flexible non-paid ones so that I can actually have a source of income to afford my commute and possibly buying a plain bagel, lightly toasted with butter from Timmies to get me through my day? Where are the jobs where you don’t require five years of experience working in our field straight out of school? The search has been frustrating.

The reason why I’m sitting at my desk working in a different field is because the hunt got tiring. Though this doesn’t mean its over, it means that I needed some money since according to a few non-credible sources I’m high maintenance (pssssshhhh). Jordan (STiXX) mentioned to me in a conversation we had a while ago “as long as you’re consistent with networking… it doesn’t have to be like another job”, so I’m taking it as such. Slowly trying to get out and network, building meaningful relationships, asking questions, breaking out of my shell, all them good thangs.

I’m not sure if there are other people out there who read this that are going through the same thing but please share your thoughts, frustrations, and concerns…

God bless xx

New Level

It’s been a whirlwind of craziness but I have officially graduated from university! Through all these years pushing and stressing to be done and now that it’s over I don’t even know what to do with myself aha. Okay I’m kidding, it’s time to make this shmoney but I mean usually I’m on break prepping for summer school or the fall semester but that’s not gonna happen… For now.

God tested me through many trials and tribulations and I thought about giving up many times. But all in all life will always have its ups and downs; if you can gather your strength to push on, do so. Don’t let the devil win, EVER!

I have so many things to do now but I am extremely happy and excited for the many goals I have to complete.

It’s funny my dad said to me that now that I’m done school he’s okay to hear about me dating now lol. But really and truly, I’ve kinda used school as an excuse to not date for a while now… And many other reasons that don’t need to be discussed right now aha. But dating just seems so exhausting. I want someone and something serious and the generation I’m apart of plays too much games. Why are we trying to figure out who cares the least?! If you like me and I like you then what’s the issue !!!

*woosah* anyways. My toes are starting to tingle aha. I pray everyone has a blessed day. Positive vibes only! God bless 

breathe for a second.

self assurance. know your worth. take your time. you’re amazing. 

appreciate what you have, work for what you want. pray for guidance, strength, and patience. 

Lord I feel like I’m constantly trying to get things on my own without asking for your help or approval which is probably why they aren’t going my way. aha good one, I’m learning I swear.

pray for me.

get ready.

how crazy is it that after yeeeeears and yeeeeears of dealing with stress with money, assignments, prof’s, family, friendships and relationships I am finally graduating from university!

I got my grad tickets today and it really dawned on me… God has brought me through all the nonsense that I didn’t think I could have made it through. Even when I gave up He put me back on track and gave me the strength to carry it through. I am eternally grateful.

its days like this…

so today has been a pretty normal day… Minus the fact that I woke up with a sore throat and cramps -___-

Some days I forget that my grandma owns her car and she has a life so there will be times where she can’t let me use her car to go be ratchet with my homies ( okay not literally but… Okay ). So I did have some things to do today, going to the gym finally was one of them. So thank God I got to do that even though it was short and I got to see my mommy and little sisters which is always a blessing. 

Now I have my home girl’s dinner to go to and grandma says she’s going to visit her sister… Great. So now I gotta plan about 2 hours ahead to get to this dinner because #TransitLife. 

I got some food in my system because I didn’t eat and I’m way out of budget for spending money on food for this paycheck. I left my house a bit too early for the bus so I went back inside for a second to get a pen… I came back and was still early for the bus but it left early and zoomed of without me. 

Now I’m vex. I know I gotta roll with the punches but walking to the terminal was not in today’s plans..

SIDENOTE: gyal dem can’t find their iPods so gyal dem gotta use their phone for music but gyal dems battery life is garbage so life hawd for di gyal dem Ahlie?

Anyways so I’m walking to the terminal because I don’t have much time to catch my next bus. I’m breaking a sweat (thank God I don’t wear makeup on a consistent basis because I would look like melting molasses). I get to the terminal and my bus is there waiting for me, AINT GOD GOOD?! *praise breaks despite my rude cramps*. I have also been told that I need to smile more before I get frown lines so I was just minding my business and this older man hands me a transfer because he got two $AVING$!!

Now I’m en route and I’m content. I always tell myself that if I’m meant to go somewhere God will work it all out. It might not look like something good at the moment but we just have to be patient.

Just wanted to share that. No kind gesture goes unnoticed.

Enjoy your Sunday xox

because I’m…

tired. fed up. happy. ecstatic. hopeful. sensitive. confused. and torn. at the same time.

wanna get me to try new things? give me no other option when I’m starving.

I went to see my fashaa(daddy) yesterday and we had this classic Philly burger(made with montery jack cheese, green pepper, and I think something else) with salad. wanna know what was in the salad!? mandarins, strawberries, cucumbers, and tomatos with a choice of either Rasberry vinaigrette or Mandarin Orange with sesame dressing… WHO AM I?! Am I finally growing up?! Mom I hope you’re proud of me if you end up reading this lol. I’m so used to eating whatever but that salad alone got me thinking about all the other things I can mix for dinner and stuff.

Any suggestions for healthy meals? I’m not gonna try everything right away but I’m slowly turning a new leaf.

tonight is Sabbath… and I’m gonna be working late. hopefully I have enough energy to do my nails at least and get some reading done. It has become easier for me to read but I still have motion sickness so I can’t read on the go =(

need to go back to physio…

Victoria Day has my ankles stiff as a board. bun “Ashbridges” aka Woodbine Beach. I’m gonna start buying sparklers and lighting them on my balcony with a glass of wine on the side. chaaaaa.

anyways, gotta start my day. be blessed and positive xox

flash

summer school is literaly flashing before my eyes!

Next week is my class midterm, we have our group assignment and we have already been assigned our final project. whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa there. but I’m happy it’s almost over. This class is great, I love it but I want to enjoy my summer without having to think about school.

who am I kidding though, I have another class that starts right after this one so I won’t be free until July. puppa ….

currently in pain from this week’s workouts and I have gain 10 lbs… supposedly that’s all muscle but I’m not sure about that lol. my eating habits are a work in progress. I think once I finally stop eating cookies and milk before bed I will be able to conquer anything ^_^

hope everyone enjoys their long weekend.

God Bless xox.