Growing up I had dreams and aspirations to work with kids so I wanted to be a pediatrician but in the same breath I don’t like science so that didn’t work out. After doing the morning news in highschool I decided I wanted to work in media! Journalism seemed to be the way to go so my Trini beti and I decided we wanted to go to Ryerson and live like the girls in Gossip Girl living downtown (less scandalous obviously) but that obviously did not pan out. Half way through university I decided that I liked Public Relations and Event Planning and that was it!

Here I am today sitting in my cubicle trying to figure how the heck I got here!

Taking a step back and observing my life I sort of know how but it is definitely unfortunate but not bad. I love my job – some days are better than others but that’s what happens when you have to deal with other people in general. Getting a job in media is super hard unless you have a connect or are willing to go broke trying to build experience with mini jobs, in my opinion. There were a few opportunities that I received even while in university but I was working a full time job and they wanted me to work for free basically until we put ourselves on… pardon?

Where are the paid internships? or at least the flexible non-paid ones so that I can actually have a source of income to afford my commute and possibly buying a plain bagel, lightly toasted with butter from Timmies to get me through my day? Where are the jobs where you don’t require five years of experience working in our field straight out of school? The search has been frustrating.

The reason why I’m sitting at my desk working in a different field is because the hunt got tiring. Though this doesn’t mean its over, it means that I needed some money since according to a few non-credible sources I’m high maintenance (pssssshhhh). Jordan (STiXX) mentioned to me in a conversation we had a while ago “as long as you’re consistent with networking… it doesn’t have to be like another job”, so I’m taking it as such. Slowly trying to get out and network, building meaningful relationships, asking questions, breaking out of my shell, all them good thangs.

I’m not sure if there are other people out there who read this that are going through the same thing but please share your thoughts, frustrations, and concerns…

God bless xx

its days like this…

so today has been a pretty normal day… Minus the fact that I woke up with a sore throat and cramps -___-

Some days I forget that my grandma owns her car and she has a life so there will be times where she can’t let me use her car to go be ratchet with my homies ( okay not literally but… Okay ). So I did have some things to do today, going to the gym finally was one of them. So thank God I got to do that even though it was short and I got to see my mommy and little sisters which is always a blessing. 

Now I have my home girl’s dinner to go to and grandma says she’s going to visit her sister… Great. So now I gotta plan about 2 hours ahead to get to this dinner because #TransitLife. 

I got some food in my system because I didn’t eat and I’m way out of budget for spending money on food for this paycheck. I left my house a bit too early for the bus so I went back inside for a second to get a pen… I came back and was still early for the bus but it left early and zoomed of without me. 

Now I’m vex. I know I gotta roll with the punches but walking to the terminal was not in today’s plans..

SIDENOTE: gyal dem can’t find their iPods so gyal dem gotta use their phone for music but gyal dems battery life is garbage so life hawd for di gyal dem Ahlie?

Anyways so I’m walking to the terminal because I don’t have much time to catch my next bus. I’m breaking a sweat (thank God I don’t wear makeup on a consistent basis because I would look like melting molasses). I get to the terminal and my bus is there waiting for me, AINT GOD GOOD?! *praise breaks despite my rude cramps*. I have also been told that I need to smile more before I get frown lines so I was just minding my business and this older man hands me a transfer because he got two $AVING$!!

Now I’m en route and I’m content. I always tell myself that if I’m meant to go somewhere God will work it all out. It might not look like something good at the moment but we just have to be patient.

Just wanted to share that. No kind gesture goes unnoticed.

Enjoy your Sunday xox

Aside

Hey everyone, I’m 21 ! Finally legal everywhere *flips table and praise breaks*

On a serious note, I didn’t expect to spend my birthday on crutches .. Well no one expects to get injured but it’s just really unfortunate. But as always, God has a bigger plan for me and right now he is doing a pretty good job of showing me who is and has been there for me .

BUT FORREAL DOE YA’LL BETTA BE CAREFUL IN THESE SKREETS . THESE ROADS GOT NO SALT ON EM . BUT HONESTLY , THIS PROVES MY THEORY ABOUT SCARBERIA . I’ve gone to fetes for a few years now and the one time I venture out there is when I fracture my ankle ? Yeah no thank  you smh .

So quick recap of EXACTLY what happened to my ankle because some people feel its their story and they wanna tell people =)

SO on Saturday night I went out for my friend’s birthday out in the badlands of Scarberia , we got there all in one piece and we were having a few drinks in the car before we got into the venue . Now I don’t get drunk because ONE I’m super annoying, TWO I don’t like the feeling and I don’t see the need to be drunk to have fun, THREE I’ve turned a new leaf lol . So that night I had enough for a buzz . After we decided we were ready to go inside of the venue I was the last person and my friend was calling me to get a bottle so I was walking to him and when I got to him I slipped and fell, the end .

I get upset just thinking about it but this injury may have been a blessing in disguise . It has given me time to think about so much things that I wanna change about myself and what’s happening in my life . For one thing I don’t really take much time to take care of myself , things like taking care of my skin, hair, nails, and my room . If I’m not working , I’m at school, if I’m not at those two places I’m tryna get out of the house to see my homies . Now with me being without a vehicle*sigh* and I don’t like asking a lot of people for rides to places I have time to just chill because transit can’t take me everywhere I wanna be and taxi’s are H’EXPENSIVE tuh rass , my goodness lol . I’ve also learned there are only a few people I can call on in emergencies , which is great . Everyone has a life and I understand, it’s just crazy to see that you would bend your back for some people that wont even lift a finger for you when it comes down to the wire . Life lessons , right ? Old Sherice would be upset and cut off most people but there is no need to be upset over some things . No malice, just keeping things moving . I’ve also learned that I’m rarely around to help my sisters and watch them grow . I’m always on the go but even when I do come home I’m sleeping or in my phone not really paying attention to them . Over these past two weeks I’ve witnessed how smart my sisters are and that they are so loving . They bring me pillows to elevate my ankle, bring me food, help me get around the house, and play cards with me to keep me entertained ; it’s so cute ! I’ve also learned that I tend run from being straight up with people . I let things slide and then wonder why they treat me a certain way . If you only message me when I post a photo on IG or when all your other “options” are not available just know that iOS7 allows me to block numbers and you’re on that list =] .

All in all , I’ll be walking in a few weeks, back to school, then vacay . Super excited .

God bless xox .